Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Count to ten...

I was just reading a friend's blog at another site and they were describing Buddhist teachings about 'living in the moment' and letting go of negative emotions. I think I have a lot to learn from that.

At this precise moment I am so angry. I've spent many hours working on something, which has effectively been undone by someone else in a stroke. Why are people so inconsiderate of other people's feelings? I don't want to deal with this now, so I'll save my frustration until tomorrow.

I do a lot of that - biting my tongue, not saying what I want to. Deliberately avoiding confrontation. It doesn't work - it just makes me more resentful and bitter.

There are moments when I feel myself on the edge of losing control and in a bad way. I don't like feeling that way. Sometimes though I feel as if I am constantly taken advantage of and my acquiescence (out of necessity to avoid confrontation) in many things is taken a signal for people to walk all over me. Its not fair, I do have feelings too.

3 comments:

Carla said...

Sorry you're feeling angry, but it is a normal reaction, especially when you feel taken advantage of. It's okay to take care of yourself, to take stand up for yourself and make your views known. That is not the same thing as anger. It's good not to confuse being assertive and being angry. Maybe you SHOULD say something about the situation. I would!

jamie said...

you're not referring to me using the delta source name,are you?
at least i hope it's something as trivial as that...
and easy to rectify...?

Mark said...

Jamie, believe me its nothing to do with Delta Source ! I've sorted out the problem now. I guess it wasn't that important, I was just feeling very frustrated, that's all.