Thursday, December 13, 2007

Trying to keep positive

That is the message to myself is at the moment. It is very hard because there is so much that hasn't gone right of late and I do tend to worry too much anyway so that doesn't help. I am still waiting to hear about the two interviews I had last week. I feel that it is discourteous that neither of them have come back to me as yet especially as I was told that I would have replies to both by now. Despite e-mails and a 'phone call I seem unable to elicit a response. Generally, I feel very down about every interview/application I have made. I feel I am the one who is constantly having to chase, being fobbed off with one excuse after another and I don't understand why. If they're not going to give me the job, just say so! Sigh...

Anyways I said I was going to keep positive and I am trying. Next week I am going to go back round the agencies and get a job, any job. I really don't care any more. I am going crazy being at home all the time and I think if it continues much longer I am just going to crack.

I have planned to meet a few friends over the coming week and I am looking forward to that. It gets me away from home and hopefully from constantly thinking about the job situation for a few hours. Not that I am trying to bury my head in the sand; I need something else to take my mind off the anxiety it is causing me.

I am looking forward to Christmas, not that I can say I have found the enthusiasm to get particularly thrilled about it this year. More than anything I am looking forward to the few days away instead of staring at the same four walls day after day. I haven't decided how long I am going to spend at my parents. It will be dictated by whether I can sort myself out with a job next week.

Fingers crossed for better news soon.

1 comment:

jamie said...

keep positive.
we're behind you,either way. whatever happens.